Continued from Carnie Wilson: Gastric Bypass Surgery.

How are you feeling? I’ve hit rock bottom with my weight. Everyone can see that I’m bigger, but I cannot hibernate. I’ve never lied or been dishonest about what’s going on in my life.

Even all these years later, having had such a great weight-loss story, being back in this place is so familiar. And it hurts. I don’t want to feel this way anymore. It doesn’t feel good when you have to struggle to get your pants on.

Why have you gained weight? Ever since I had my daughter, my focus is not on me; it’s on her. For the past two-and-a-half years, I haven’t slept. I am convinced there has to be a link between sleep deprivation and a slower metabolism. My husband left to tour on the road, and I was with my daughter alone. I had anxiety, started snacking, and gained it all back and more.

I have a weakness when it comes to snacking. For me, it’s a tortilla with cheese, popcorn and graham crackers, all in one night. I could eat a bag of M&Ms in a day. I have an obsession with baking sweets; I want to open my own bakery. The past year, my workouts have been lazy. I’ve been snacking on the wrong foods and not drinking enough water.

Have you thought about just accepting yourself as a plus-sized woman? I don’t think I’m going to be healthy at this weight for long. I feel those extra 50 pounds. Plus, I’ve got a closet full of clothes that are size 8 that I would like to get back into again.

How much do you want to lose? I’d like to lose 45 to 50 pounds and then try to get pregnant again. I know I will do it! I don’t consider myself a failure. I just got off track. [source: OK!]